I watched the scenery change slightly as I crossed 5 state borders. And as I drove, the million thoughts that are normally running through my head landed on the loudest and clearest one. I am so ready for 2014 to be over. It can't happen soon enough. This year was terrible and I don't want to spend another moment in it. I need the freshness of a new year, the hopeful beginnings and zings of excitement at the possibility of what is to come. The unwritten paths for myself and all those in my life. A year of opportunity and creativity mixed with resolutions that I'll make but probably won't completely fulfill. I crave the sense of possible adventure on the horizon and the knowledge that I can escape the black hole that was 2014.
And its not that I didn't learn anything. Of-course I did. But I learned things that I probably didn't want to and I definitely didn't need to. I dealt with a kind of hurt that was so raw and left me questioning all those around me. And not just questioning people, but questioning life and questioning this world and the most difficult... questioning myself. I am still amazed sometimes by how easily I was fooled. My innate belief has always been that people are good and goodness will prevail, but I have to admit that 2014 has not exactly proven that to me. I am left sort of defeated...
But it's still me we are talking about here and even in the darkest hours there has always been a glimmer of hope. I was reminded of that recently as I strolled through the streets by Columbia University and the UWS. So I'd like to wipe the slate clean and start anew. Perhaps it was something in the movie I saw yesterday or the silliness of the boys that tried to pick my friend and I up at the bar last night or the parts that I watched of "When Harry Met Sally" late into the night that still make me smile after all of these years, but I am ready for this new year.
So 2015. I'd like you to bring me the following as you roll your way in...
-Adventure
-Laughter
-Strength
-Patience
-Glamour
If you were one of the very few who I allowed into my circle of trust these past six months well then there aren't really enough words to express my gratitude to you. I am here solely because you have given me strength. Thank you.
And a wish for everyone out there for the year ahead. I am recycling my words of last year in the hopes of forgetting about 2014. (snicker, snicker).
